When I was in grad school, I was honored to study poetry for three years with five other students who continually amazed me. They taught me and challenged me, leaving me mesmerized that such beautiful things could come out of their brains. One of those poets was Courtney Queeney, whom I’m so happy to have as a reader (and commenter!) at Mama:Monk. Thankfully, her talent was appreciated quickly and she was given a book deal in 2007. If you’re looking for a recommendation for your poetry experience, read Filibuster to Delay a Kiss. Do it.
Yesterday, as I sat through a wonderful service at my church, I was giddy to see a woman with a cello taking the stage just in time for communion. I love the cello. My dad and his two sisters were all forced to learn an instrument (my Memaw prides herself on her ruthless after-school family rehearsals throughout their childhood). My dad is the only of the three who didn’t pursue his instrument professionally. He still plays violin beautifully and one of my favorite sights is the way he moves with his bow.
My aunt plays the cello. And though I never played it myself, I’ve always loved the size of the cello. I love the unladylike posture of it. And mostly, I love the depth of its sound. Its voice is so much wiser than any of the other strings, like it’s been through more, knows more. Like its depth has also made it a little sad.
One of my favorite lines from Courtney’s poems comes from “Notes for My Future Biographer.” When yesterday’s cellist sat down to play, my mind whispered, “Then I heard a cello and thought, / Oh. That’s how you say it.”
So, because it’s Labor Day and we need a poem, and because you all need to know what a lovely poet my friend is, I’m going to share the whole poem with you.
Notes for My Future Biographer
The dark things I did started young, stayed.
Then I heard a cello and thought, Oh. That’s how you say it.
I could spell and count to a hundred in several languages, but never learned the words to help anyone to a church.
There were X number of men; I couldn’t solve for X.
With the chameleon as my model I greened and glowed outside, or rippled underwater. Alone, I was translucent, I was
* * *
barely, but survived myself those early years,
which prepared me for the later ones, when I felt like furniture
and never told the truth.