Each day this week, I'll be sharing from a series of five Advent poems I wrote for John Knox Presbyterian Church in Seattle. I hope they will bless you as you prepare for the coming of Christmas.
“A great and wondrous sign appeared in heaven: a woman clothed with the sun, with the moon under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head.” -Revelation 12:1
“…keep warm this small hot naked star/ fallen into my arms.” -Luci Shaw, “Mary’s Song”
After the angel dissolved, I stood among the skies, no longer dressed in brown linen, but with fire: the sun’s silk my gown. I leaned into the swirl of gold and lit.
Have I created my Creator?
My mother clucks her tongue. Questions, she says, cause confusion. She could never hold what I saw:
the crown upon this plain brown head, twelve stars in motion, set spinning like a child’s toy, and rushing towards me, flames in its wake, blazed the greater star, its hot white orb.
Should I tell you it entered me, how the warm simmer settled?
When I woke to this dirt floor, my mother’s voice in the next room, issuing me out the door, I ran my hands down my belly, knew what is real is the crown, not the dirt.
Later, when the nausea came, when the accusations birthed, when all those I loved turned enemies, I would stand in the garden, arms raised, close my eyes and feel the spinning crown encircling, feel this star descending into human form.